Loathing and Penchant Reality

I'm giving my loved ones black hearts (with some touches of red) on Valentines Day..

A heart contains a poem(s) and the design is simple.. yet, it says that it's made by Phantasm Darkstar(me) just by looking at it.

Third year students from our school got to celebrate Valentines Day because of our Literature class. English teachers have decided to make us write a poem for our friend, and a poem for our loved one. After that, we have to make a heart, write our poem there, and then display it along our corridors so that other students could see our work.

The hearts contain the poem that we made, the name of the person whom we are dedicating it to, and our name. Anonymous is not allowed.

Those hearts have to stay there until Valentines Day. On Valentines, we have to give our heart to the person..

Here are some of the replies I got from different people:

>how sad ... i've seen this in TV... they are from Africa right?...


very, very sad.....!

bless them......

> yea very sad...
i make my little brother see this pics bec. sometimes he kept on complaining bout food..
So, i think it made him feel guilty..

But if you will compare this to those rich people who only think about money and when you see their dinning table w/ a lots of food, damn,
now i think they suck big time..

> Okay i feel guilty abit, cus i sometimes do complain about food. These people have died due to severe starvation.. what have i done? T.T

>hOw sAd...


>ohhhhh crap. Ive learned my lesson..not to complain and nag my mom about food.=_=



i just wanna close my eyes.. >.< these pickus hurt me

> Sad to see how lack from certain necessities can affect someone so bad


> i feel really guilty not bcoz i'm always had a quarrel bout my food but i'm always had nice food n been treated nicely...


> amusing...(...)

~ Umm?Amusing in wat way??...well i used to complain about my food but now i lessen it...im learning how to appreciate what u are given..

>they look like aliens..poor things...



> If only I can change the world...

> It gave me something to stare at(and think for)...amusing...somewhat reminds me of the animals we really are but we somehow forgot.

***Note that the replies here were not edited by me (just the font size and SOME of the colors -- to make them visible to my page).. these are the exact things that they uttered (w/c would include some of the typo errors -- of course, these typo errors are sometimes inevitable.) -Phantasm***

At times we tend to bend where the wind blows and at times we really do not know how will we ever bend if the wind is coming from both opposite directions. We get baffled to what side we're going to bend to, to get off the risks, to be on the safe track. We're just like bamboo grasses, but our difference is that we have free will and we are able to distinguish the different angles and points of our lives. At some point if we try to bend with the strongest that influence us because of certain reasons that might be doubt for example or reasons we are made to believe that is rather false to what is true; and that because of that wrong bend we break from our roots and there everything ends for us. At other times we came to realize what the truth really is and that we take the right bend or decision. And that by the wind is over we're more stronger on about facing storms because we have bended right we get even more rightly flexible: Taking a more wiser step.
Let us not just think twice on occurances that we encounter, and that when the road gets rough we should too get to think we need to get tough, let us not just think twice upon difficult circumstances but let us think trice upon making a decision or going say any matter to be conceived.
I hope what is happening today serves as a lesson for what might come tomorrow.

Oh crap... I have been very busy today...

• 12 am: I was making my slogan in Physics. Then I had some chat with Von and Charm


• about 2am: I talked to my boyfriend on the phone while doing my slogan...


• 3am: I started to feel sleepy. Unfortunately, I can't go to sleep yet because I'm still not yet done with my slogan. Good thing that he kept me awake by singing songs while making the guitar and making me laugh. (Thanks for that!)


• about 3:30 am: I finished my slogan. (Still on the phone...)


• 4am: Our conversation ended when the alarms rang and the people in our house woke up.


• 5am: I had to get ready and go to school. While in school, as usual, I learn stuff, blah blah blah...





• I learned that "There is a thin line between foolishness and bravery."
  Well, I don't have much time this. I'll just be editing this next time.


• It's already our periodical exam next week. Yet, it seems like we've got nothing to review on our elective. No books, no lessons, no tests, tentative subject teacher, very few lectures, and just experiments. (This makes me kinda worry... What the heck am I supposed to review then?)




• 5pm: I reached home, had a rest, and started studying and surfing the web.


• 9pm: Fixing my blog, and going to study for the upcoming chapter tests.


• By this time: Still awake, most probably, studying, reading, reviewing, eating, etc.